Letting my geekdom shine for a moment because yes I am a soft-core Browncoat!
This week I sort of ran out of gas. I haven’t done much for my books. The day job has been non-stop and I feel like I’ve been fighting off getting sick. So many people were out this week being sick - I do think it has a lot to do with the weather changing.
The good news is Spring is starting to arrive. We have been trying to make progress with the terrace. This year we are putting in some astro-turf so that it’s even more of a comfortable space for us to be in. Next weekend I will have start my spring veggie seeding.
Time always flies by so fast. I’m glad to be getting over winter soon but I also feel not ready for the increased activity. I would like to continue my hibernation!
I still have to do my writing homework which is to get down a timeline of events. I will have to tackle this perhaps this weekend or next week.
My hubs is helping me make progress with my picture books though! He’s put a couple of things up in Kindle Publishing - including Contracts and Bankruptcy but still have to take a bit of time to review everything. The to-do list is never ending. Every day, even every week, comes with only nano-progress and I beat myself up about it.
This morning though, Dr. Brené Brown reminded me that play is very important - actually a key to our health and contentment. As well, the need to “let go of exhaustion as a status symbol and productivity as self-worth”. I don’t think I have any problems with the exhaustion as status symbol part. I never thought being busy and exhausted was an admirable state. I actually hated it - and it’s a part of the reason why I left big law. But productivity as self-worth — that one I have a really really hard time with. I think that I have to keep producing, otherwise I am just taking up space. I have to remind myself that it’s ok if I’m unproductive some days. It’s just about giving it my best shot.
So, if I’m out of gas then I am out of gas. I can just float along in space for awhile like the crew had to during the Firefly episode. Sometimes, one just needs to float awhile.